Discipline

Discipline

I've never been good at it.

I love the idea of a schedule.  But I am not good at following one.  

I love the idea of an exercise plan.  But I am not good at following one.

I love the idea of a menu plan.  But I am not good at following one.

I love the idea of a devotional plan.  But I am not good at following one.

Maybe it's because I am a rule breaking justifier.  I don't even like following my own rules.

Maybe it's because I am an All or Nothing girl.  When I get off track, even a little, I revert to Nothing.

I've been in a Nothing phase.  No healthy eating.  No exercise.  Very little time in the Word.

But my body and my pants and my soul are telling me it's time for some All.

So last night I made a plan.  You see, I was supposed to go on a field trip with Son #2 today.  Which meant leaving the house at 8:10.  And so I made a schedule for my morning which made time for devotions, exercise, a healthy breakfast, and time to pack a healthy lunch.

But everything changed when Jessie woke me up shortly before midnight saying "Jake threw up all over my floor."

"@#$%(&," was my first thought.  (That 6 letter word rhymes with 'bammit')

I'll spare you the details because gross.   Let's just  say, we had a rough night.

So instead of being on a field trip, I am at home.  My plan went nothing like I had hoped.

And yet I'm grateful.  God knew I'd be spending this day at home even when I didn't.  He knew I needed a day at home.  It's not what I wanted but it's what I needed.  

Funny how those things are sometimes different.

I could choose to cry and complain and be sad.  And I'm not gonna lie, I did those 3 things.

But now I'm looking past that.  Being home means I can catch up on my pile of laundry.  Being home means I can catch up on this pile of paper work.

Being home means I had plenty of time to make myself a healthy yummy breakfast.

Being home means I have time to cuddle with Jake.  Altho currently he won't let me sit beside him.

My plans didn't work out for today.  I'm choosing to be ok with that.

*Ask me later if I exercised and spent time in the Word.  It's a good day to work on discipline.