Unsettled

This time of year as become synonymous with that word for me.  School starts tomorrow so our schedule (or lack thereof) is about to change drastically.  My work schedule will change as well.  The sun is setting earlier and coming up later.  I know the weather will change soon too.  And there are days (like yesterday and today) when all this change is just too much for this girl.  I want to freeze time.  I want things to stay the same.  I want to clutch, hold tight, stamp my feet and scream "NO!".  My babies are growing up and I know that is good and right but it's happening so fast.

And then there are days when it's not happening fast enough.  Days where I long for peace and quiet.  Days where I can't take any more whining.  Days when everything I get done gets undone.  I fantasize about when it will just be Larry and I again.  When we will actually be able to have a conversation while eating supper.  When we will be able to have a motorcycle again (SUPER excited for this one!).  When we will be able to travel.

How do you deal with all the unsettled thoughts?  Blogging helps me.  Crying seems to be a good release.  But the best?  Talking to Jesus.  He's whispered to me that all this unsettledness is to keep me uncomfortable.  Because this world is NOT my home.  Peter calls us "aliens and strangers in the world".  It's easy for me to lose my heavenly focus when everything is "normal".  It takes seasons of unsettledness to remember that my time on Earth is short.  What am I doing about it?  Am I following God's leading in my life?  Am I listening to the Holy Spirit when he suggests how to be a better wife, mother, friend, sister, or daughter?  Am I pointing people to Jesus?

Today I am choosing to embrace the unsettledness.  If it drives me to Jesus it is a good thing.  As much as I want to, I cannot handle life on my own.  I need HIM.  And you do too.